So, I must stop being afraid of my potential, time to not only face and accept that I excel at anything I try, it’s time to find a focus, and excel in that. I know the things I love the most, I love to write, to travel, to eat, and to cook and to try ‘the new’, I need to merge those into writing about cooking, eating and travel, experiences for a lifetime Write about not only what I know, but what I don’t, as I experience it. I think this is ultimately the perfect course for me, it’s just a matter of getting there.
In the meantime, it’s time for me to seriously work on the other issues in my life, my fear of what I can be, causes me to retreat from life. Both by drinking too much and by spending all of my free time on-line in multiple virtual planes of reality, ‘cept they aren’t real they’re distraction from what I should be doing.
This trip, away, alone, and without being ‘on-line’ in my room, I’m forced to do more than I would normally, and this is all for the best…. I want this, I want to face these things, I want to move forward, I want to sit on beaches on every continent and write about what that is like…. Even if it’s bundled in a parka and watching penguins jump into the Antarctic. And I want to take you there with me.